Why I chose a homebirth

I have a few raised eyebrows of people that know I am going the home birth route considering what I went through to have Kiera. I guess I don't feel like I "gave birth" to Kiera because it ended in a horrid c/s and an extremely long recovery. why oh why would I want to potentially subject myself to another horridly long recovery with the potential of a section, again, when I can just convienantly schedule's my baby's birthday??

My list becomes longer as I do more research.
First of all, the more research I do, the more I distrust doctors in general regarding care of myself and my unborn child. not because they are "out to get me" or something, but because in general, they are taught that their patients know nothing and to treat them that way. well, I am never going into a birth like that again, and even I was not completely ignorant of the risks and interventions that can happen while trying to push a baby out into the world. OB's are taught that they must "do something", and by doing something that can consist of unnecessary interventions, like epistomies, pitocin, yada yada. and this makes a lot of women feel better that something is being "done" to get their babies out.
Fetal monitoring has been shown to be significantly less effective than actually taking the time to listen to the baby themselves, the doctor or nurse that is, to show signs of distress. they have you hooked up to a machine in the hospital that may or may not be accurate in terms of how the baby is actually doing. with my MW, she will check me every 15 minutes to make sure that the baby is doing fine throughout the labour.
Labour is really good for babies. Babies born via scheduled c/s are much more likely to have breathing problems and end up in the NICU for these problems. not only that, but if the doctor is going by an arbitrarily assigned 28 day cycle of when they child was concieved and they are WRONG, say a woman has a 38 day cycle that baby could potentially be born premature. right now I have a friend who had an ultrasound that dated her 3 weeks earlier than when she thought she had concieved. so because of this new date, the docs are likely going to cut her open earlier, lest she go into labour and inconvience them *rolling eyes*. this carries a risk of her child being premature and ending up sick. but, I will keep my mouth shut about it even though it concerns me greatly.

I think what is most relieving to me is that I don't have to worry about "fighting" with the doctors who are going to be hoovering around me, convinced that doing a VBAC is just a really stupid thing to do, and why would I not just schedule her birthday? I don't need their negative energy and I don't need to deal with that while trying to birth a child. and I sincerley did look for an OB when I first found out I was pregnant. there are no birth centers here, and so there was no "in between" that I could find, it was my house or a hospital where I all ready felt mentally defeated.
I interviewed an OB in Denver, though not the one that I wanted, and when I talked to her about my previous birth experience a little bit, I mentioned that I had spiked a fever during labour. but I had had an epidural so its hard to say that I had some kind of infection or whatever, because epi's are known to cause fevers. she was like" no they don't" and basically treated me like an idiot even though I have read over and over in different studies the link between fevers and epi's. but I guess, as patient who doesn't have MD behind her name, well I can't know anything. can you tell I am annoyed? and that is what I can't handle. a doctor treating me like an idiot because I don't have MD behind my name.
I have been a lot more proactive in this pregnancy, from getting chiro care to getting massages and trying to eat more protein this time around. I also REALLY love my midwifes care. its SO much more personal, I go to my appointment and sit there for an hour and chat about whatever, while Kiera runs around and plays with the many toys in her office. we have a RELATIONSHIP instead of being with one caregiver or another on any known day. I KNOW that she will be with me at my birth, and I am very happy about that. and yes, I get most of the standard tests, including as many ultrasounds as I want, which I have had. I get blood tests and yada yada. she isn't some woman who shows up at my birth and waves her magic wand or something.
I am planning on giving birith in water, though if that doesn't turn out, I am not to concerned. if, worst case scenario, I have to go to the hospital, I know that I have given it my absolute best shot and set myself up for success as much as possible. because I have. I have empowered myself to give birth the way that I want to, not being told how, or being made to lie flat on my back and pumped full of medicine. I know what my risks are, and by leaving the hospital setting, I have lowered them significantly. just because your baby is born in a hospital guarantees nothing. in fact, I am quite convinced my care is going to be that much greater because I am HER ONLY PATIENT!!

oh yes and just as a fan stat, almost 40% of babies born in Denmark are born at home. its completely normal. did I also mention their c/s rate is considerable lower than the US? I really don't think that 30% of babies being born today needed to be cut out of their mama's bellies. I just don't.

I also know recently of a woman who died of a c/s, because her amniotic fluid mixed with her blood and formed a clot and killed her during surgery. this happens 1 in 200000 times. the neonatal death rate for birthing at home is half of what it is for c/s, the chance of getting a post op infection is much higher for a c/s. basically, I will NEVER sign up for someone voluntarily cutting me open with that many risks. my biggest risk includes a "uterine rupture" which sounds God awful, but in fact the risks are much less that it might seem by that title. its a slow prcoess with a lot of warning ahead of time. if I need to go in, I go in. and frankly, I feel a lot more confident my MW would catch it before a doctor who has other patients to attend to, ever would.

So these are some of the few reasons I am chosing a homebirth. I am not being foolish and doing it unassisted, but wise and having some wonderful ladies around me to support me during labour. I am not too worried about the pain, because I dealt with it last time and she was in the wrong position, so it was hell. this one should be in the right position, so it should be a heckuvalot better.

any questions, go ahead and ask. this essay is also for my own clarity.